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[Wednesday
September 5th 2007
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ever thought you wanted something so badly then it wasn't what you wanted, or maybe it was?
yeah, its confusing and that is where i am right now and its the fucking shittiest place to be
i miss my best friend more than words can fucking describe
i love being home and seeing my friends here but i miss it there oh so much
i had just began making good friends and i moved
my life will always be a mess
i might as well get used to the fact
i have a birthday comming up, not to happy about it, i will drink and smoke away the feelings.
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| ?????? Life ?????? |
[Saturday
June 9th 2007
@ 3:47pm] |
I am going to write just to get a few things out and it may turn into some kind of update so if you want to continue reading here goes...
I had to put my cat Chloe down yesterday (Friday June 8th). I have had her since I was 6 years old, we lived a long time together, which is only making it harder for me. She was my baby, I treated her as I would treat a child. She was the cutest thing in the world and I loved her with all of my heart. It was what was best for her, she was having kidney problems they think and she had lost half of her body weight in a short period of time. I hate it still and I still think it is unfair that things have to die. This has been a really bad year so far, my gradpa passed away in February, Ryan had to put Becca to sleep in March, and now its June and I had to put Chloe down. What is next? I don't know how much more I can handle, its not fair and I will never live long enough to understand the cycle of life that we live. Why did whoever made us or whatever (still confused to what I believe in) chose for things to be the way they are? Gosh I could seriously ask questions all day about this stuff and nobody had the answers and I don't think I will ever believe any one group of people, life is confusing.
On an ok note, I may have gotten a loan for last semester so I can sign up for classes for this fall!!! I may be changing my major as well, I have been putting a lot of thought into it and looking a lot of things up. I can always continue taking pictures on the side.
Going to Vegas soon to see my little Daner get married, wow how the tears will fly that day. Its going to be an amazing trip and I think that I am ready to get out of Chicago for a little while.
I will be going home to the mitten July 15th through the following Sunday, pretty excited about that. I really miss my grandma and I am going to spend as much time with her as I can while I am home. She has supported me and done so much for me and I have no way in hell of ever having enough to ever thank her enough, I love her so much.
Hope everyone that actually does read this is doing well, I know most people don't use this thing anymore, I hardly ever do. Well, to all you soon to be moms and to the moms that are already moms that do use livejournal, hope this occupied your time sufficiently, lol. I do love ya'll
~much love
aimster
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| An update because i am bored |
[Monday
May 21st 2007
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I am only updating on here becuase I am bored out of my mind sitting at caribou coffee becuase I am to poor to afford internet.
Summer officially started for me May 10th at around 2:20pm when I finished my math exam. I did, well, ok this semester. These are my grades:
English: A-
Math: A-
Foundations of Photography: B+
Darkroom Wrokshop: C+
Art History I: D
Tutoring: P (which just means I passed, its just a stupid hour class once a week I had to do becuase of English)
Definatly not as good as last semester, but I could have done a lot better, expecially in Art History and Darkroom. Oh well, there is next semester, hopefully.
I say hopefully becuase I am having hella issues right now with student loans and financial aid, and I didn't pay for last semester, so there is a hold on my account and I cannot sign up for classes for the fall unti I pay for the spring, lame. I am in the stressfull process of working with loan places and the schools financial aid office to work things out. IF, that is IF I get to sign up for classes, I will get the last picking. That sucks a lot.
Here is how I am spending a summer: WORKING. Yep, that is it. I am in such a financial mess. I now have two jobs, the same old one at Photogenic, which I am working there right now 3 days a week; and I also work at Blockbuster now and I work there on the weekends, so 3 days there as well. Once I get a little bit of money I am going to cut down a bit, but until then im a working machine.
Since the 10th of May which was a Thursday I have worked almost overy day. So, summer has sucked so far and I don't see it getting much better.
My family was down here for a few weeks. My step-brother had to have surgery at the University of Chicago Hospital so they stayed there, which is on the other side of town from me, so I didn't see them daily but I went out there when I could. He is doing ok now I guess, they went home earlier today.
I am pretty positive that Ryan and I will be going to Vegas June 29th-July2nd for Dana's wedding!! I can't believe my little Dana getting married. Wow, it will be great to meet the new man and it will be super duper great to see her. I have not seen her since Christmas break and I miss her like crazy.
Well, that is all. Obviously I was bored.
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| Here you go Jessica |
[Thursday
November 2nd 2006
@ 1:19pm] |
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It started snowing today in the windy city kids just to let you know. Its pretty cold today...I need a new coat so anyone who wants my address to send me a check so I can buy a nice down jacket I would appreciate it.
Work is going really good, I really like the job...I didn't work at cold Navy Pier this week so that was really nice. I think I will be working at the Museum of Science and Industry most of the time which I am excited about. They are starting this new thing with Christmas trees from around the world and we will be doing pictures there and that is where I will be most of the winter, I LOVE Christmas so this makes me happy.
Somebody was suppost to come here this weekend and that is why I have the weekend off but this certain person decded to go somewhere else and not notify me about it at all and I am really really pissed about this. I don't have any money and I took the time off so this person could come and visit and I could show this person around but whatever....some people just don't think about what their actions will do to others lives.
I am going to be getting ahead on school work for the weekend instead which I guess is good since its going by so fast. I really want to get really good grades so I will be in the darkroom like all day tomorrow doing a ton of photos and then comming home and writing a paper for English and one for one of my Photography classes. I also need to find a concert to go to for my Music class and I have to write a paper on that. Some of the stuff isn't due for a few weeks but I will be ahead and very happy about that!
Pretty much this was a boring update but Jess was begging for some and I totally know where she is comming from.
I have to leave for class in like 40 minutes so later kids.
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[Sunday
October 29th 2006
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I am bored...
i have to work at 3 at Navy Pier, its going to be cold, there will be lots of kids, and Americas Got Talent try outs are today there, its going to be crazy. to say the least i don't want to go.
i really really like the job but when i am at navy pier its just so so cold.
classes are going good...the big fire cancelled some and some are still cancelled
i really really want to go somewhere for spring break. anyone wanna go somewhere with me?? my spring break is march 17-the 25th, well that is when i want to go on the vacation, the break is like the 19th-24th but i wanna make a week of it!!
so if you wanna go message me or something and we can talk cause i really really wanna go somewhere!!
k, that is all...i am really really bored, i don't want to go to work, i don't want to have to come home go to bed, and then get right back up for work. oh well, such is life
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[Saturday
October 21st 2006
@ 1:45am] |
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Just got off the phone with Ambur!! Stephanie, Jessica, Terese, and her just passed the Chicago tollbooth!! That means they will be here anytime!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Off to Kentucky tomorrow for Amber and Brian's wedding, could not be more excited.
First day of work went good.
Navy Pier was cold
The Museum of Science and Industry was crazy busy
I like it so far just lots to learn but I am excited! Ok, I am off to wait for my lovely's to get here!!
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| My head has the best of me |
[Wednesday
October 18th 2006
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Being emotional sucks
There are times when I love to be alone and just think and there are times when I hate it...
I am having one of the times i hate right now.
Gosh emotions suck....
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| Life |
[Friday
October 13th 2006
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I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep, that is right, I got a job, and as you can see I am very excited about it!!! It is at this place called Photogenic. They do photos at the John Hancock Observatory, The Navy Pier, The Museum of Science and Industry, big major city events, and CELEBRATY PARTYS!! Isn't that cool, I could be photographing the next big celeb party!!! Woohooo is all I have to say about that. I had orientation today and I start soon!!!
School is going better than ever. I really know that I made the right decision in comming to Columbia. I love it here and this is where I am meant to be. I love the people, I love my classes (most of the time), oh its just so much fun. I am glad I am getting into the swing of things here.
President Bush was here yesterday (Thursday) to do some speech at the Hilton Hotel on Michigan Ave. I protested accross the street. It was so so much fun. It was really cold outside and I was out there for like an hour or so but wow was it fun. When his car was leaving the hotel we got as close as the police would let us and yelled at it. Oh how much fun, I can't wait untill the next time!!!
Our apartment is soooo cold right now. Ryan and I struggled last night to get the heat on but it would not come on. The maitenance guy is suppost to be on his way so hopefully tonight we have heat. All I have to say is thank goodness for many blankets, quilts, comforters, and a small space heater!!!
Well, I am off to the vet to check out the pounds in Chicago cause we are thinking of getting a dog!!!
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| Woke up early so here is my life on the computer |
[Friday
September 29th 2006
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Ok, here's the thing. I woke up early this morning and I am starting to get bored so I am going to update, for any of you who actually read this anymore. First things first, its getting cold outside. I love the cold weather, I get to wear sweaters and sweatshirts and coats (when I buy a new one). The only thing I don't like about the cold weather is at night it is cold, thank goodness I had a nice warm quilt last night that great-grandma made me. Oh, and the heat will have to be turned on soon, which means that the bills will go up, can you say SUCK.
Well, as you all know I have been living in Chicago now for a little over a month. I honestly love it here. It is definatly way different from living in Muskegon. I can no longer just leave on my own scheduled time and get my keys and hop in the car and go. Now I have to walk to the "el" station (which is just down the road so not that bad at all) sit and wait for the train and hope I make it to my destination on time. I have had wonderful luck so far. We ride what they call the brown line to school and most everywhere we go and sometimes it pretty much sucks cause they are working on it so it has to stop sometimes and the guy comes over the loud speaker and says something to the affects of "crews are working on the tracks ahead of us, we hope to be moving shortly". Once you get yourself used to that and used to the many different people that you will see on the train its a pretty awesome experience. Now I got myself some books from the library cause Ryan thought it would be a good idea if I started to read while I was on the train.
Classes are going, well yeah they are going. I like my English class a lot. In photography I am a little behind but I plan on taking a lot of pictures this weekend then spending all day Monday in the darkroom so I will be caught up, or ahead of where I need to be. My first photo critique is next Tuesday and that is where all of us in the class post 5 of our pictures and the class talks about them. I am very nervous about this. I am confident with my photography but still when others are talking about your work its a little nerve racking. I really hate my music class and I would totally drop it if I didn't want to be a full time student. I am doing alright in there I guess, got our first quizes back last night and I got a B+ so that is pretty good. For the class we have to go to 2 concerts and do a report on them and my first one is due next Thursday night so I found a free concert to go to on Wednesday afternoon, that should be a blast. It's classical music, woohoo. We had to choose a concert that we normally would not go to and I would not go to a classical concert and its free so why not go, right?
My birthday was WONDERFUL last weekend. Erin and Ashley came down and we ate at Burrito House (this amazing mexican resturant right across the street from the apartment) we dyed hair and watched "the L word". Good times that was. I could not have asked for a better birthday. Then the best roomie in the world surprises me with the movie "Coyote Ugly" which I have wanted forever but I have a hard time throwing money down for movies. I am so happy, its one of my favorite movies of all time.
Alright, I guess this is long enough and for those of you who actually read it all, thanks for caring about my life. For those of you who skipped down to this part, good for you for having something better to do with your time than read about my boring life.
I am going to end with me saying that I LOVE Chicago. I LOVE living on my own. I LOVE my roommates a lot. I really like Columbia College (I am not going to go as far as saying I LOVE it because its only been 4 weeks, lets not get ourselves carried away, I am not one to fall that easily).
Ok buddies of mine, have a wonderful day.
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[Sunday
September 24th 2006
@ 10:35am] |
I am blessed. With what you ask? I'll tell you.
I have the pleasure of witnessing with my own eyes Ryan dancing.
He has the radio full blast screaming to 'Ring the Alarm' by miss Beyonce Knowles herself and shaking that boot-ay like you never did see.
That boy can drop it, pop it, pick it up, and lock it like nobodys business.
Oh to live in the city.
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| Life |
[Friday
September 15th 2006
@ 11:20am] |
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So I never update anymore cause I really don't like livejournal, I feel like nobody reads my posts so why the heck take my time to write them, is it for my own good, i guess so. Actually my wonderful roomie asked me to update and whatever baby wants baby gets so here we go....
The second week of classes is done, they are going good. I really enjoy both of my photography classes and I actually like my English class. My music class is a little weird, odd professor and a really expensive book but I am staying in it and I am gonna truck through it like a little trooper.
I think I got a job, I am going to check on it today. It is at this Pelly's Liqure store right down the street from our apartment, like not even 5 minutes away so it would be awesome if I worked there.
I am running low on money, bills are starting to come, I don't have my loan money yet, we have no food in the house, oh gosh life is good!!!
Most important thing in the freaking world right now is that ERIN LEE WHITTEN is comming to town today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I could not be happier.
Ok I am waiting for Ryan to finish putting the curls in his hair then we are off to look for jobs and to get my hair cut, SHORT!!!!!!
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| just an update |
[Monday
September 4th 2006
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Ryan and I got a roomate!! She has lived here for only like 12 hours but I think she is the shit already, I love her.
Start classes tomorrow, excited and nervous. I am really excited to meet some other people though. That is the hard thing about moving to a new city, you don't know anyone. Thank goodness I had Ryan or I would have always been really bored.
Amysue, Rory, and Erin Lee are coming here again on the 16th and I cannot freaking wait, I pretty much love them.
I miss home but I LOVE it here. The city is so cool, there is really always something to do and its just so darn cool.
Ok, I think I am going to try and go back to sleep now, I am still tired.
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| Erin Lee and Amy Sue will be here soon |
[Friday
September 1st 2006
@ 12:58am] |
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Erin Lee and Amy Sue will be here in like 12 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am super excited, I cannot wait to show them around town!!
It will be super fun. I can't wait. Make it come sooner.
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[Sunday
August 27th 2006
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I am still LOVING it here in Chi-town folks, yep, its pretty much the shit!!!!
I am SOOOOOOO looking forward to Amysue, Erin, and maybe Tillie comming down on Friday!! OMG I freaking love those girls, they are silly, they make me laugh, oh how they make me laugh. Ryan and I are already making plans for what to do with them, we are going to show them a kick ass time, Oh Yeah.
Well, we are watching Harry Potter right now so I am gonna get back to that.
Lots of Love
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| I officially live in Chicago now!! |
[Sunday
August 27th 2006
@ 10:04am] |
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Here is my first update from the fine city of Chicago!! I moved in to my new apartment yesterday! It is awesome, all of our stuff that we bought looks great, I could not be happier (well if I still had all my friends 2 seconds away from me and not 3 hours I would be happier). I will post pics, cause this place is just to darn awesome, when we get everything situated. Until then have a jolly good time kids
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| Goodbye...for now |
[Saturday
August 26th 2006
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So, tonight is my last night sleeping in my room, at my house, in Muskegon, in Michigan. How weird is that, I thought it had hit me that I am moving but I don't know when it will, maybe tomorrow night when I am sleeping in my new room in my new apartment, in Chicago. Everything is packed in the Uhaul and we are ready to leave tomorrow morning.
I have seriously LOVED this week, I got to spend so much time with my close friends, I wish I could have seen more people but wow the week was busy. I have loved every moment I got to spend with all of my bud's this week. I will miss all of my friends so much but anyone who wants can call me anytime and I am only a 3 hour drive away!!!
Well I guess that is my goodbye for now speach, not that well I know but hey what can a girl do ya know. I don't know when we will have online so if you need to get ahold of me call me. I love all of you and will miss you so so much.
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| Packed and ready to move...... |
[Monday
August 21st 2006
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I just got done packing like everything in my room that I will not absolutly need this week. My room looks weird. I have boxes in the corner stacked up and shelves and tables are empty. I move to Chicago in 5 days. My whole life as I know it in the little town of Muskegon is going to change totally. It is kinda scary to think about but I could not be more excited about the change. I need it, I am meant to live in a big city. I have always hated Muskegon and I am finally breaking out, it feels so good. Friday we will be loading up the uhaul and the trucks and vans and heading off on our 3 hour drive to our new apartment. It feels weird that this is actually going to happen. Just like 6 months ago Ryan and I just had this crazy idea to look into this college that he found, we figured hey we will go to the open house and check it out. Well now its all history from there. We fell in love with the college, obviously fell in love with Chicago (who doesn't) and now we are 5 days away from moving there, living in our own apartment, and going to this amazing school.
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| We got and apartment, we got an apartment!!!!! |
[Saturday
August 12th 2006
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Ryan and I got an apartment!!! Yep, it's pretty exciting. It is in Roscoe Village, pretty cool area and right outside of Lakeview, which was like our first choice of where to live so yippie!!! It is a 3 bedroom and has its own washer and dryer so no laundrymat, woooohoooo!!!! It has hardwood floors and will be really nice once we get all of our stuff into it. We move on the 26th of this month so we have a crap load of stuff to do before that. Two weeks and I will live in Chicago, YES!!! I absolutly cannot wait, I am scared to death but I think that is making me even more excited!! I think I am finally going in the right direction and oh boy does it feel good!
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| Pamperd Chef Stuff |
[Wednesday
August 2nd 2006
@ 2:42pm] |
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Hey, for any of you who were at Tillies benefit you know I did a pamperd chef show. Well it didn't go over to well and I would like to make more money for Tillster. PLEASE PLEASE if any of you or your moms or whatever could bring some catalogs to work and get some more orders that would be awesome. 20% of the total order will go diectly to Tillie herself so lets do this!! Message me if you would like some catalogs, I can get them to you but I am only going to have the show going for another week or two so lets get moving!!!
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| Items for sale |
[Wednesday
August 2nd 2006
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Hey all of you lovely people,
I am going to be putting my car up for sale soon. It is a 1994 Saturn, four door, power windows and locks, nice on the inside, outside is nice, only problem is moon roof does not work. She runs good. Blue book value for her is $1330.00. I am not sure exactly what she will be up for but I will let you know. If anyone is interested leave me a message cause I really wanna sell her before I move. Tell all of your friends. Tell all of your friends little brother or sister who are 15 or 16 and looking to buy their first car!!
Also, if you need a microwave I have an extra since Ryan and I both have one. It will be like $10 or something so message me if you need a microwave also.
Thanks you fine people
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